Chocolate Frosting and Garbage
by Venerable Thubten Chodron©
We hear the great masters say, "Practicing
Buddhism is good. It will bring you happiness in this and future
lives," and we think, "Umm... This sounds interesting."
But when we try to do it, sometimes we get confused. There are so
many kinds of practice to do. "Should I prostrate? Should I
make offerings? Maybe meditation is better? But chanting is easier,
perhaps I should do that instead." We compare our practice
to that of others. "My friend just made 100,000 prostrations
in one month. But my knees hurt and I can't do any!" we think
with jealousy. Sometimes doubt comes in our mind and we wonder,
"Other religions teach about morality, love and compassion.
Why should I limit myself to Buddhism?" We go around in circles,
and in the process, lose sight of the real meaning of what we are
trying to do.
To resolve this, we need to understand what
following Buddha's teachings means. Let's look beyond clinging to
the words. "I'm a Buddhist." Let's look beyond the external
appearance of being a religious person. What is it that we want
from our lives? Isn't finding some kind of lasting happiness and
helping others the essence of what most human beings seek?
One does not have to call him/herself a Buddhist
in order to practice the Dharma and receive benefit from it. Interestingly,
in Tibetan, there is no word, "Buddhism". This is noteworthy,
for sometimes we get so caught up in the names of religions that
we forget their meaning, and busy ourselves defending our religion
and criticizing others'. This is a useless venture. In fact the
term, "Dharma" includes any teaching that, if practiced
correctly, leads people to temporal or ultimate happiness. It doesn't
exclude teachings given by other religious leaders, provided that
these teachings lead us to the attainment of temporal or ultimate
Examples are readily available: moral discipline
such as abandoning killing, stealing, lying, sexual misconduct and
intoxicants is taught in many other religions, as is love and compassion
for others. This is the Dharma, and it is beneficial for us to practice
such advice, whether we call ourselves Buddhist or Hindu or Christian
or whatever. This is not to say that all religions are the same
in every respect, for they aren't. However, the parts in each of
them that lead us to temporal and ultimate happiness should be practiced
by everyone, no matter which religion we identify with.
It is extremely important not to get bogged
down in words. Sometimes people ask me, "Are you Buddhist,
Jewish, Christian, Hindu or Muslim? Are you Mahayana or Theravada?
Do you follow Tibetan Buddhism or Chinese Buddhism? Are you Gelu,
Kargyu, Sakya or Nyingma?" To this complexity of concepts,
I reply, "I am a human being searching for a path to discover
truth and happiness and to make my life beneficial for others."
That's the beginning and end of it. It so happens that I have found
a path that suits my inclination and disposition in such and such
a religion, and such and such a tradition. However, there is no
use in clinging onto the terms, "I am a Buddhist of the Tibetan
variety and practice the Gelu tradition." We already have made
enough simple words into concrete concepts. Isn't this grasping
at fixed and limited categories what we are trying to eliminate
from our minds? If we cling to such labels in a close-minded way,
then we give ourselves no choice but to quarrel with and criticize
others who happen to have different labels. There are already enough
problems in the world, what is the use of creating more by having
bigoted religious views and conceitedly defaming others?
A kind heart is one of the principal things
we are trying to develop. If we run around childishly telling others,
"I'm this religion, and you're that religion. But, mine is
better," it is like turning chocolate frosting into garbage:
what was delicious becomes useless. Instead, we would be much wiser
to look inside ourselves and apply the antidotes to intolerance,
pride, and attachment. The true criterion of whether we are a religious
or spiritual person is whether we have a kind heart toward others
and a wise approach to life. These qualities are internal and cannot
be seen with our eyes. They are gained by honestly looking at our
own thoughts, words and actions, discriminating which ones to encourage
and which ones to abandon, and then engaging in the practices to
develop compassion and wisdom in order to transform ourselves.
While we are trying to practice the Dharma,
let's not get entrenched in superficial appearances. There is a
story of one Tibetan man who wanted to practice Dharma, so he spent
days circumambulating holy relic monuments. Soon his teacher came
by and said, "What you're doing is very nice, but wouldn't
it be better to practice the Dharma?" The man scratched his
head in wonder and the next day began to do prostrations. He did
hundreds of thousands of prostrations, and when he reported the
total to his teacher, his teacher responded, "That's very nice,
but wouldn't it be better to practice the Dharma?" Puzzled,
the man now thought to recite the Buddhist scriptures aloud. But
when his teacher came by, he again commented, "Very good, but
wouldn't it be better to practice the Dharma?" Thoroughly bewildered,
the exasperated man queried his spiritual master, "But what
does that mean? I thought I have been practicing the Dharma."
The teacher responded concisely, "The practice of Dharma is
to change your attitude towards life and give up attachment to worldly
The real Dharma practice is not something we
can see with our eyes. Real practice is changing our mind, not just
changing our behavior so that we appear holy, blessed, and others
say, "Wow, what a fantastic person!" We have already spent
our lives putting on various acts in an effort to convince ourselves
and others that we are indeed what in fact we aren't at all. We
hardly need to create another facade, this time of a super-holy
person. What we do need to do is change our mind, our way of viewing,
interpreting and reacting to the world around and within us.
The first step in doing this is being honest
with ourselves. Taking an accurate look at our life, we are unafraid
and unashamed to acknowledge, "Everything is not completely
right in my life. No matter how good the situation around me is,
no matter how much money or how many friends or how great a reputation
I have, still I'm not satisfied. Also, I have very little control
over my moods and emotions, and can't prevent getting sick, aging
and eventually dying."
Then we check up why and how we are in this
predicament. What are the causes of it? By looking at our own life,
we come to understand that our experiences are closely linked with
our mind. When we interpret a situation in one way and get angry
about it, we are unhappy and make the people around us miserable;
when we view the same situation from another perspective, it no
longer appears intolerable and we act wisely and with a peaceful
mind. When we are proud, it's no wonder that others act haughtily
to us. On the other hand, a person with an altruistic attitude automatically
attracts friends. Our experiences are based on our own attitudes
Can our current situation be changed? Of course!
Since it is dependent on causes -- our attitudes and actions --
if we take responsibility to train ourselves to think and act in
a more accurate and altruistic way, then the current perplexed dissatisfaction
can be ceased and a joyful and beneficial situation ensue. It is
up to us. We can change.
The initial step in this change is giving up
attachment to worldly concerns. In other words, we stop fooling
ourselves and trying to fool others. We understand that the problem
isn't that we cannot get what we want or once we do get it, it fades
away or breaks. Rather, the problem is that we cling to it with
over-estimating expectations in the first place. Various activities
like prostrating, making offerings, chanting, meditating and so
on are techniques to help us overcome our preconceptions of attachment,
anger, jealousy, pride and close-mindedness. These practices are
not ends in themselves, and they are of little benefit if done with
the same attachment for reputation, friends and possessions that
we had before.
Once, Bengungyel, a meditator doing retreat
in a cave, was expecting his benefactor to visit. As he set up offerings
on his altar that morning, he did so with more care and in a much
elaborate and impressive way than usual, hoping that his benefactor
would think what a great practitioner he was and would give him
more offerings. Later, when he realized his own corrupt motivation,
he jumped up in disgust, grabbed handfuls of ashes from the ashbin
and flung them over the altar while he shouted, "I throw this
in the face of attachment to worldly concerns."
In another part of Tibet, Padampa Sangyey, a
master with clairvoyant powers, viewed all that had happened in
the cave. With delight, he declared to those around him, "Bengungyel
has just made the purest offering in all Tibet!"
The essence of the Dharma practice isn't our
external performance, but our internal motivation. Real Dharma is
not huge temples, pompous ceremonies, elaborate dress and intricate
rituals. These things are tools that can help our mind if they are
used properly, with correct motivation. We can't judge another person's
motivation, nor should we waste our time trying to evaluate others'
actions. We can only look at our own mind, thereby determining whether
our actions, words and thoughts are beneficial or not. For that
reason we must be ever attentive not to let our minds come under
the influence of selfishness, attachment, anger, etc. As it says
in the Eight Verses of Thought Transformation, "Vigilant, the
moment a disturbing attitude appears, endangering myself and others,
I will confront and avert it without delay." In this way, our
Dharma practice becomes pure and is effective not only in leading
us to temporal and ultimate happiness, but also in enabling us to
make our lives beneficial for others.
Thus, if we get confused about which tradition
to follow or what practice to do, let's remember the meaning of
practicing Dharma. To cling with concrete conceptions to a certain
religion or tradition is to build up our close-minded grasping.
To become enamoured with rituals without endeavouring to learn and
contemplate their meaning is simply to playact a religious role.
To engage in external practices like prostrating, making offerings,
chanting and so forth, with a motivation that is attached to receiving
a good reputation, meeting a boyfriend or girlfriend, being praised
or receiving offerings, is like putting chocolate frosting into
garbage: it looks good on the outside, but it's unhealthy.
Instead, if everyday we center ourselves by
remembering the value of being a human being, if we recall our beautiful
human potential and have a deep and sincere longing to make it blossom,
then we'll endeavor to be true to ourselves and to others by transforming
our motivations, and consequently, transforming our action. In addition
to remembering the value and purpose of life, if we contemplate
the transience of our existence and of the objects and people that
we are attached to, then we'll want to practice in a pure way. Sincere
and pure practice that leads to so many beneficial results is done
by applying the antidotes that Buddha prescribed when afflictive
attitudes arise in our minds: when anger comes, we practice patience
and tolerance; for attachment, we recall transience; when jealousy
arises, we counter it with sincere rejoicing in others' qualities
and happiness; for pride, we remember that just as no water can
stay on a pointed mountain peak, no qualities can develop in a mind
inflated by pride; for close-mindedness, we let ourselves listen
and reflect on a new view.
Looking holy and important on the outside
brings no real happiness either now or in the future. However, if
we have a kind heart and a pure motivation free of selfish, ulterior
motives, we are indeed a real practitioner. Then our lives become
meaningful, joyful and beneficial for others.