By Bryan Taylor ©
You talked about some people being angry or
grouchy at a certain time of day, for example in the morning. That's
me quite often! Recently I had a bout of anger early in the morning.
I was awaken by the guard to be the first one to go to recreation.
It was about 5:30 a.m. and I'm not a morning person to say the least.
Well, I was still a little asleep, and another inmate laughed at
me because I had to go first. Nobody wants to go first. Everyone
is trying to get a couple more hours of sleep in, so when he teased
me, I snapped at him.
After a minute or two, I calmed down and
apologized to him. Some of the other guys teased him about it for
a few days because I usually am real friendly and he'd managed to
get my goat. I felt bad about it, even more so because they were
giving him a hard time about it. I'm glad that he is a good natured
guy and didn't cuss me out. It could have turned into a bigger deal
that it was-in prison environment that happens a lot. Anyway, it
was a little issue but it showed me how easy it is to fall back
when I don't guard my mind. It's like you said, my mind was looking
for something to be angry at.